ok..i shall describe each feeling i felt today:

Sad:

i am sad seeing all my frens started to move away from each other...though they may not treat me very nicely before and sumtimes neglected me...but u see...its still sad..becoz i do have my happy memories wif them...sumtimes..i wonder..why is life like dat? its like we are a characters in comic books and games...being controlled by ppl...and cant really express wat we are trying to say.

secondly..i felt sad today..coz i caused eric's head to be bruised badly..i m So sorry...i dont mean it...but just now..i m really too angry to look at you i guess..i felt sad also..for quarrelling wif him today...its just a simple matter but i dunno why it turned out that way.

happy:

i felt so happy today...first..at least i now some misunderstanding that sue had of me..are now gone..and i m happy to be the last girl standing in the end....she is able to talk more openly to me now.. last time she always thought that i am proabably teh potential backstabber. lol. ..wat a joke....anyway...i am just glad...

secondly...of course i am glad tha my problems wif eric is solved now...stop tinking that u r inferior can or not??? :p
and i wan to thank Socks for this...sorry for causing u any trouble k...i really appreciate ur help today...and yah..thank Suraiyah also..for telling me wat to do wif his head. *winks*

confused:

i am in confusion now..i wan to remain neutral in this situation..but..sumtimes its hard...i am too soft-hearted at time..and maybe too gullible...i MUST not side with any one of them...if i do...i will hurt the other party..i noe it may not concern me...but..when they need me..i just cant sez no..i believe u guys noe i m not the type that will throw my frens aside when times are bad. i can just pray that...i will have the strength and control over myself..and dun let myself to be swayed by emotions..i have to tink objectively! not subjectively! (chim rite.hahaha)

Disgusted:

there is this ger in my sch...being a victim of word of mouth (gossip) she is called K. there are rumours in the sch that actually questioned her chasity...thats the meanest thing to do! she is very brave to face that rumour and still trying to be strong...

my heart broke when i saw her today...she looked so...down...and lost all cheeriness and energy...i m not even close to her loh...but when i saw her like dat today..my heart broke. i mean..i dunno why ppl must do this kind of thing loh...words can really kill loh.

sumone asked me if it is the ppl who spread the rumours wrong or the one that actually believe them without thinking? i dun hav a fix ans..but tink both are wrong...u shouldnt spread rumours that you noe will affect ppl adversely..can u imagine if u were in her shoes? and you should think first before you actually believed wat ppl sez. that person will probably laugh at u for believing him/her w/o thinking.

chatting and gossiping are good and fun..but please put urself in control.

touched:

i realised for the past few days...there are actually alot of ppl who cares about me. some of the ppl that show their care to me are even those i probably nv tok to before? or...i hav stopped toking to them. ..i wan to thank socks, suraiyah and eric also...for being wif me...going out wif me..its enough to make me stand firm on my own decision..

i will spend more time with other ppl from now on..i m not going to restrict myself once again to just certain grp of ppl...i love grps..but i do hope that my grp will expand and more frens will be together...gambate!

thats all that happened TODAY. isnt my life wild? lol. suraiyah..i go lots of lif ek..only its a different kind of life :P

shall go off now..need to sleep badly..eating my medicine first..see ya people.