ok...pms is setting in on me...i feel weird...there is this feeling of emptiness within me..i feel like just ending everyting once and for all...maybe if i end it..these weird feelings would be gone...have u got the feeling like when u wake up in the morning u goes " wat am i here for?" its another day yet again...another day which may hurt ur heart more and more. i seriously dunnow at i am crapping about..its just nonsense i guess.
i woke up this two days...with an unwilling heart...i just wanted to be covered by my blanket from the rest of the world...i feel like i no longer have anyone to protect me or be my shield...i seem to have lost a precious part of me...my side of positivity...cheerfulness...i dun feel like talking to anyone...i have become anti-social once again.
i am supposed to be seriously studying now..but i just cant bring myself too..i dun have the mood to..as i sez...i feel like just slacking around...study study study has all i have been doing all my life..i noe its a student job..to study..but haiz..its fucking killing me. maybe ms lim is right..the stress has finally sink in to me.
wat have i done all my life? i look around...i feel that i am useless...i have achieve nothing all my life...and i have done nothing useful..i am a failure. when will this cycle of life ends?
- my heart and soul is breaking into million pieces for a reason i dunno why..maybe i am just weird...when can i get back my old self once again.....-
-i am alone in this world-
