i wake up feeling weird today....i opened my eyes and i found myself not able to recognise the place...it took me a moment to realise its my own room...i was stunned...and feeling abit dissapointed that it was actually my room. i had a very nice dream yesterday very nice dream....though i cant remember wat dream...but i found myself relaxing and not willing to wake up..
sometimes i wish to myself that i got amnesia like khairul like dat...then i can start my life new...i wanna forget about sumt stuff....but i dont wan to forget sum stuff...is there such ting as half-amnsesia? this weird thought must be arising from my pms again. haha. anyway...have u ever felt the loneliness in this world...even when u noe that there are ppl around u? well...i have felt that before...and it is becoming more often nowadays...i think i need to go and see doctor one of these days...i got the feeling that i am sufferring from depression. i am serious.
i started feeling numb for everyting surrounding me...numb to sad feelings...i wanna cry but i cant. numb to anger...basically...i feel empty... as empty as a shell. i laugh, i joke, i talk...but i find myself doing useless stuff...i find no purpose...i am like..."why am i doing this?" i seriously think that i need a break from this world...is there such thing as momentary death? in tv got lah...real life got not? haha.
