one thought comes to me.
" when is the last time i enjoy myself truely."
i tell myself this. its myself who decides whether i truely enjoy myself and yes. i do.
message to certain sumone out there.
when i was sitting thinking to myself. this is wat i suddenly tot of...esp...on monday nite.
i have to admit that sometimes i hate you for leaving me alone here. that you cant be there when i need you. noone to share my sorrows with. sometimes..i blame you and blame myself. but well...we cant turn back the clock. i noe you didnt do it willingly..and you have to do it. well...just take it i am just frustrated. hehe. dont worry. i am very much still the same as before and my feelings for you nv change but yeah..i need sumone to blame and it is you. hahaha.
so people out there. if you are already with the one that you like. please treasure it. you guys dunno how painful it is being in a relationship but its as if there is no relationship at all. remember this...ur bf/gf will still be there physically for you when u need them. how about me?
count ur blessings people. really.
this entry above is not meant for anyone. but its really a random tots that i have on v-dae and monday nite. that was the time i realise that i dun have the shoulders to lean on physically it is. alrite..i am just being emotional rite now.
dear lesbians partners: all of you guys are kinda in pmsing mode also with ur bfs...but please treasure them and remember.. always compared with sumone worse than you, wahaha. do you guys noe how much i envy u guys? i am happy when u are happy with ur bfs and it worries me when u guys are not ok with bfs. roller coaster life.
yoda-san, please take care of urself. u are falling sick often this semester. sorry about ur failed surprise today..shall make it up to u. and really thanks for ur card. you wrote that despite being sick yeah...so yeah...i will pass on the bulldog face. hahaha.
