lack of posts again. seriously..these days i lost the inspiration to blog..actually it more of too tired that i forgot to blog...anyway...school is horrible! wait..i dun mean the classmates yeah...i mean the workload. its just 2nd week of sch...and the tutors are not letting us off..they are out to get us. deadlines for projects are very close now...and damn lah..i dun even noe wat to do. and my tutor for that subject sucks big time lah. nv even teach.
and its not really helping that...i am already in my third year. so its time to start tinking..where to go next. damn. dunno if due to pmsing or wat..i actually feel depressed tinking wat or where to go next. i am startign to have doubts if law is actually the ting for me. fuck lah. i tink..everyone is starting to have that doubts. adn its not helping when i tot of my idiotic grades!!
i really hope that its due to my pms that i am actually feeling this depression. i hate growing up. the older i am...the more decisions i have to make. and fuck..i am growing older which means..my parents are growing older. have u guys ever tot of wat will happen after u die? i mean...people always sez..scientifically...if u die...ur body lose the electricity and thus unable to function. ur brain cant function means ur body cant move..so u sleep forever.
does that mean...u will just suddenly sleep forever...not knowing...who and where u are..since ur brain is no longer tinking? u ceased to exist...i mean ur loved ones will of cse rmb u..but sooner or later u will be forgotten. the worst ting is..since ur brain is dead...u probably doesnt even noe that u ever exist in this world.
wat the fuck am i toking about man...anyway..its just science definition of death. i still prefer the definition of death in religion. i wouldnt wan to forget who i am and who are my loved ones. n i do wan to see them again even after i died (not as ghost mind u!)
i like my life now...though full of stress...my i find myself lucky enough enough to meet those whom i had met. i feel lucky being born into my family. given a choice..i wouldnt wan to be born to other family. anyway..i am just crapping tonite...its eiher pms or its depression. either one..the feeling sucks.
