i am originally feeling nervous about starting SIP tml..but now..seriously i dun even noe wat i am feeling. sometimes i really really want to believe that i can depend on others but oh well..at times u really cant. u can onlu depend on urself most often. my father once sez this to me..."you will feel much more relieved and happier if you spend ur own money compared to when to spend others' money" nowsadays i really feel that could be true.
i may feeling guilty if i spend too much of my own money and feel bad but i dun feel pressured directly or indirectly. you may not mean it but i DO feel uncomfortable and pressured. i was happy but i am not. who can in this situation? i already promised you to do sumting about it..and try to understand. but repetition of the same subject is not going to make things better and make u or me happy. in fact it made is worse.
not to worry it not to do it at all. thats fine by me. just tell me. i dun like it when i do sumting that sumone doesnt like...but instead of stopping me, the person lets me just do it. and then after sumting crops up..then start to talk about it again and again. i would rather from beginning...just dun let me do it.
thats all. and damn it. i dun tink i will get a good nite slp. oh well..i may as well fail SIP. good night.
