i was working today and i encounter sumting that set me tinking...i have really changed alot..in terms of my manners...behaviour...and thingking...i must sez this though..its not all change for the better.
i was so ashamed of myself after the encounter..it really felt like...as if God is sending me message and a little sound in my heart sez this. "santi...what have u been doing? look at urself now...who are u becoming into? is this who u wan urself to be?"
i swear u noe...i almost cry on the spot there and then. cry coz i feel shameful not sad. i thought about it on my way back home too. its a long walk home...but its really very reflective. anyway...i will not tok bout wat happen that set me tinking...but i will just sez its a good ting that it happens. if not..i wunt noe what has become of me.
i tell myself that i will change..i dun wan the same thing to repeat again. i wan to go back to me--3 years ago. omg...everytime i tink bout wat happen...i really wan to cry...its damn fucking....bad.
